i'm a self-admitted,full-fledged insect freak-a-holic.i'm sooo afraid of insect,especially cockroaches.when that stupid cockroach ran on me in the car,i started screaming and tried to brush it off.well,i got the shock of my life!
so guys out there,if you wanna date me,make sure you are prepared to kill any insect,anywhere, anytime.even if it's the most beautiful and rarest butterfly ever,be prepared to kill it.this quality is one of the most important when i find a man to love.none of this quality,you can say bye-bye!lol...
actually,what happened on wednesday [25/6/2008]was,the whole of p6 had a mass lecture by miss ong on solar system and the say and night cycle.and the most amazing thing was,chun yan arrived at the hall when the lecture ended at 8.30am.
nothing much happened except me going home at 12.30pm cuz there was no choir on wednesday and there was no supplementary..haha.so happy lah....♀..♂
then on thursday [26/6/2008],i continued my duty at gate two though the p6s are let off and "retired" already.haha.i told mr low.he told me i could still help out there.i wanted to help out there cuz i have feelings for gate two since i've been doing duty for the past 4 years of my life.
nothing much happened the rest of the day except that we have six periods of chinese lesson ever since the timetable changed this term.oh.and the six periods include the supplementary after school.du lao shi made us do zuo wen..i like practically copied the whole zuo wen lah!
then went home,study...blah blah blah...haha..lol.......
today,i was sooo special.i didn't go for maths supplementary today cuz daddy wrote a letter and excused me cuz i was going for the gat [general ability test]at dhs [dunman high school]....ate at school,went home,found daddy.and left.
then we waited in the car for a while then left for the canteen.saw my kindergarten classmate from poi ching school,ong yu chi.she also went for the gat.and i found hui sin,stella,celeste,shiying and rachel and jolene and denise, jun wen,justin,yuxiang,sze chuan and edmund chew..and some other people from our school lah.
my parents guessed that the students from khs [kong hwa school]made up the biggest froup of pupils who went for the test.this group is only today.maybe there were other pupils from the first group today,and there's the first day of the test,two sessions too.imagine.lol
and the gat was quite easy lah.it was just identifying patterns.the few hardest ones were the last few.questions 35-38.there were only 38 questions,and half an hour.another half an hour was used to do briefing and giving out of answer sheet and question booklets.it was an oas [optical answer sheet] answer sheet.must shade with 2b pencil.lol.the test officially started at 3.55pm and ended at 4.25pm.lol.
sent stella back to khs,then went to fetch kai from the student care.then went home to bathe,fetched mummy and chang then went to eat dinner.and went to ben gege's house.cuz er gugu went for an operation to take out her womb or something like that cuz there was a cyst in her uterus.but it's not cancerous lah.no worries.
then went we went home,before we set off,that was when i got sooo freaked out by the cockroach.i'm not ashamed about it cuz my fourth aunt who was a former army regular and obs instructor is afraid of cockroaches too.no biggie.
anyways,gtg.going to be 12am liao.bye!
27/6/2008
27 June 2008
24 June 2008
Number 121
i sooo sick of being misunderstood!!everybody misunderstands...like duh.will i ever give anybody the impression that they must ask me before putting down their conclusion and decision.lemme give you some advice: everything's not what it seems.especially with that person.suckup. teacher's pet.duh-uh.
anyways,so sorry for not posting for in such a looong while..hahah.was too busy and a bit too xian too post.didn't feel like posting leh.anyways,whoever in khs'6/3'08 took MY set of the newspaper today,please return it to me.won't be eternally grateful,just UTTERLY DISGUSTED!
oh,and..miss ong increased the timing of her supplementary till 3pm and that means that i have to go for piano immediately after school.so not good.anyways,i'm gonna study much more than before now,so i won't be online and posting as frequently as before.maybe once a week.okkays?
so.please don't expect me to post during the weekdays as frequently as before.maybe on saturdays.but if i don't post during the week,it probably means that i'm too busy,or just too lazy to post..haha.but i'll have more content to post on the blog!woohoo!i like can't think of anything to write now,i'll just recommend more winglin stories kkay?gtg.bye.lol
24/6/2008
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/angelheartED/contents.shtml - KO Class [completed.something like adapted story of zhong ji yi ban/ko one]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/ilikegrapes/ - To Be Or Not To Be [completed.nice story about dancing.it's sad too.with a little twist.]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/ilikegrapes2/ - Oh No! I'm Married To My Teacher! [ completed.quite cute.no who-cahsing-who story]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/Ren_kawaii/ - Hey Juliet! [completed.twisted aaron-chase-hebe storyline.]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/__everything/ - Everything [not completed yet.but nice storyline.and quite unusual storyline.aaron-got-hebe-pregnant.]
http://winglin.net/fanfic/pinksmiles3/ - Waitress [should be completed.great story.romantic.]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/Ice_Queen/ - My Fiance's Best Friend [not completed.nice storyline of forbidden love and misunderstandings.]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/ilikegrapes3/ - When The String Snaps... [not completed.nice though.spy story.hebe's the spy again plotting to kill aaron.]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/ilikegrapes7/ - ♀ When Mars And Venus Collide ♂ [not completed.nice though.with behind-the-scenes.lol.]
anyways,so sorry for not posting for in such a looong while..hahah.was too busy and a bit too xian too post.didn't feel like posting leh.anyways,whoever in khs'6/3'08 took MY set of the newspaper today,please return it to me.won't be eternally grateful,just UTTERLY DISGUSTED!
oh,and..miss ong increased the timing of her supplementary till 3pm and that means that i have to go for piano immediately after school.so not good.anyways,i'm gonna study much more than before now,so i won't be online and posting as frequently as before.maybe once a week.okkays?
so.please don't expect me to post during the weekdays as frequently as before.maybe on saturdays.but if i don't post during the week,it probably means that i'm too busy,or just too lazy to post..haha.but i'll have more content to post on the blog!woohoo!i like can't think of anything to write now,i'll just recommend more winglin stories kkay?gtg.bye.lol
24/6/2008
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/angelheartED/contents.shtml - KO Class [completed.something like adapted story of zhong ji yi ban/ko one]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/ilikegrapes/ - To Be Or Not To Be [completed.nice story about dancing.it's sad too.with a little twist.]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/ilikegrapes2/ - Oh No! I'm Married To My Teacher! [ completed.quite cute.no who-cahsing-who story]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/Ren_kawaii/ - Hey Juliet! [completed.twisted aaron-chase-hebe storyline.]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/__everything/ - Everything [not completed yet.but nice storyline.and quite unusual storyline.aaron-got-hebe-pregnant.]
http://winglin.net/fanfic/pinksmiles3/ - Waitress [should be completed.great story.romantic.]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/Ice_Queen/ - My Fiance's Best Friend [not completed.nice storyline of forbidden love and misunderstandings.]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/ilikegrapes3/ - When The String Snaps... [not completed.nice though.spy story.hebe's the spy again plotting to kill aaron.]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/ilikegrapes7/ - ♀ When Mars And Venus Collide ♂ [not completed.nice though.with behind-the-scenes.lol.]
19 June 2008
Number 120
hey people,just came back from the dunman high school temporary campus at mount sinai road..haha.i went there for the trials.when daddy and i reached there,it was so quiet,i thought it was an abandoned building larrgh.haha.
i reached there first,but was the third to go in.how ironic is that?anyways,daddy saw our old neighbour from simei.actually we thought the girl that was going for the auditions was from canossa convent,but it turned out to be that she's from tao nan!
actually,tao nan and canossa convent's uniform are quite similar.well for the girls if you're talking about tao nan lah.then daddy found her familiar and blah blah blah.haha.lol.anyways,i've ound out that KONG HWA is a better school than tao nan..
cuz tao nan expects their primary 1 pupils to know at least 100 vocabulary words and i think they're the more difficult ones.haiz.at KONG HWA,we let the pupils learn at their own pace with teachers giving them extra lessons if needed.haiz....
but anyways,when it was my turn for the trial,i was sooo scared.i couldn't even sing twinkle twinkle little star properly and mr tan wanted me to sing flying free.i don't work well if i'm alone with a person that i've never seen or worked with before.
i work well if i'm alone and with someone that i'm familiar with.but if there are other people with me,i'll work at my best.i'm not the kind to work one-to-one.i work well with people.but with people i'm comfortable with.
anyways,i can't post the pictures from tioman today.my dearest ben gege hasn't send the photos to me yet.even though i have some photos here,i don't wanna post them yet.i'll dedicate a whole enter for the photos though you won't get all of them.i wanna keep some private.
anyways,for those p6 pupils who are going for dsa,i wish you good luck and jia you [add oil as we say]...hahah/i gtg.bye peeps.
19/6/2008
i reached there first,but was the third to go in.how ironic is that?anyways,daddy saw our old neighbour from simei.actually we thought the girl that was going for the auditions was from canossa convent,but it turned out to be that she's from tao nan!
actually,tao nan and canossa convent's uniform are quite similar.well for the girls if you're talking about tao nan lah.then daddy found her familiar and blah blah blah.haha.lol.anyways,i've ound out that KONG HWA is a better school than tao nan..
cuz tao nan expects their primary 1 pupils to know at least 100 vocabulary words and i think they're the more difficult ones.haiz.at KONG HWA,we let the pupils learn at their own pace with teachers giving them extra lessons if needed.haiz....
but anyways,when it was my turn for the trial,i was sooo scared.i couldn't even sing twinkle twinkle little star properly and mr tan wanted me to sing flying free.i don't work well if i'm alone with a person that i've never seen or worked with before.
i work well if i'm alone and with someone that i'm familiar with.but if there are other people with me,i'll work at my best.i'm not the kind to work one-to-one.i work well with people.but with people i'm comfortable with.
anyways,i can't post the pictures from tioman today.my dearest ben gege hasn't send the photos to me yet.even though i have some photos here,i don't wanna post them yet.i'll dedicate a whole enter for the photos though you won't get all of them.i wanna keep some private.
anyways,for those p6 pupils who are going for dsa,i wish you good luck and jia you [add oil as we say]...hahah/i gtg.bye peeps.
19/6/2008
16 June 2008
Number 119
heys...sorry couldn't post during the past 4 days...cuz i was stuck in a kampung[kampung mukut to be presise] in the beautiful island of tioman.well,i can't say that it wasn't fun,but it was really really beautiful,fun,relaxing and the people there are super friendly.and cute sometimes.haha.anyways,i just came back from malaysia today at 'round 2pm.
the house we stayed in was quite freaking at first.cuz there were like ants everywhere.and we had to walk past a monkey that they keep chained up before getting to the kitchen to eat..haha.we went swimming in the beach in front of our house there when we got there.it was so shiok lah.
then we went for dinner after bathing and then we went to the jetty for some fishing.lol.daddy let camelia hold the fishing rod to fish and she really stood there without moving.it was hilarious!then zai uncle went to check the line and found out that the baits hadn't even went into the water lah!
then we went back to sleep liao loh.but anyways,the bed was so hard and i couldn't even sleep lah.and camelia and iris were making so much noise in the morning...want to try to sleep also cannot.
well,we went fishing on the boat afterwards and to the beach.we made friends with auntie aisha's niece called zura.we call her kaka zura since she's malay and kaka is malay for older sister.and we caught ben gege flirting with her lah.!haha.
while we were fishing,the boatmen,zaine,zafif,zarif and another,were fishing along with us lah.but they had the skill and they catch the fish super fast lah.they were catching groupas and promphets and many else faster then us.lol
we went to the only beach on the left side of the island later and swam for a while.then went up to the jetty to have lunch.[cuz the boatmen "tah pao" the food for our lunch mahhs]...the food super nice.
then we went to the waterfall for a bath.the water was freezing and cleansing at the same time.we needn't bathe after we got back to the house.and had dinner.well,words cannot express how i felt.we took more than a thousand photos altogether using ben gege's and our cameras.
and after we went back and bathed,kaka zura asked ben gege out and treated him to ice-kachang.the children[us],were assuming that something had happened between them for them to go out together.lol...btw
nothing much happened until the next day.then we went to the marine park and the coral island later.the marine park was absoulutely[?] nice.and i learnt how to snorkel there.and if you put rice or bread in the water,the fish will start coming and you can actually touch the fish while they're eating leh!
but you can't see the bottom of the park since it's part of the sea and the cordoned off one area for this park.and the boatmen's diving skills are just great.they can dive right down until you can't see them and then come up.cool!
then we saw sharks swimming quite close up,but nobody dared to touch them.haha....we went to the coral island after that.i ate lunch first before going into the water.it was so nice if you use the snorkel and look,you can see shoals and shoals of fish and corals.!
mummy got lost in her own world once she went into the water lah.and she ended up getting a sunburn on her face.we went fishing after that and i think zarif caught a super big parrot fish and mummy caught a savenger fish for the "closing ceremony"..
we threw it back afterwards cuz it was inedible and yeh.the cool thing is that the fish has a head shaped like the bottom of a boot to stick onto a shark according to ben gege.haha....after that auntie aisha and zafif took us to the small waterfall in the village.
it was nice,but there was just to many mosquitoes and the path there isn't cemented,it'slike an old man's route.and it's really freaky.but the water there is cooling.and once i put my hair in,it became soft and silky without me even putting the conditioner.
then had bbq.but before that,wew went to eat ice-kachang.then they have a different version of keropoke[?]whih is like fishcake but soft and not as chewy.we had bbq for dinner.and i learned how to eat a crawfish with the help of auntie aisha and ben gege.
lol.the crawfish was nice.the lobster was a bit of a disappointment cuz it tasted the same as the crawfish.then we ate prawn,crab...shiok.it was a true seafood bbq.with the parrot fish zarif caught.the other group of people didn't have it.lol
and we talked for very long,then we pestered zafif to bring us prawn fishing.haiz.but we didn't catch anything.but we saw the prawn lah.we didn't catch it cuz: zafif isn't skilled enough.zaine's better.haha.
we went back to sleep after that.i fell on the bed on went to sleep immediately.haha.theni woke up the next morning somewhat grouchy lah..haha.then i freshened up,and went to see the dunno what animal that the ah tok's trap caught.
haha.then we left.nothing much.cuz we had to leave early.8am.haha.but we promised to go back next year..haha..anyway,i'll post the pictures when i get them.cuz ben gege's camera had more photos.900+ photos.okies?gtg.haha
16/6/2008
[oh,and P.S....zafif is soooo cute!.but too shy for his own good]
the house we stayed in was quite freaking at first.cuz there were like ants everywhere.and we had to walk past a monkey that they keep chained up before getting to the kitchen to eat..haha.we went swimming in the beach in front of our house there when we got there.it was so shiok lah.
then we went for dinner after bathing and then we went to the jetty for some fishing.lol.daddy let camelia hold the fishing rod to fish and she really stood there without moving.it was hilarious!then zai uncle went to check the line and found out that the baits hadn't even went into the water lah!
then we went back to sleep liao loh.but anyways,the bed was so hard and i couldn't even sleep lah.and camelia and iris were making so much noise in the morning...want to try to sleep also cannot.
well,we went fishing on the boat afterwards and to the beach.we made friends with auntie aisha's niece called zura.we call her kaka zura since she's malay and kaka is malay for older sister.and we caught ben gege flirting with her lah.!haha.
while we were fishing,the boatmen,zaine,zafif,zarif and another,were fishing along with us lah.but they had the skill and they catch the fish super fast lah.they were catching groupas and promphets and many else faster then us.lol
we went to the only beach on the left side of the island later and swam for a while.then went up to the jetty to have lunch.[cuz the boatmen "tah pao" the food for our lunch mahhs]...the food super nice.
then we went to the waterfall for a bath.the water was freezing and cleansing at the same time.we needn't bathe after we got back to the house.and had dinner.well,words cannot express how i felt.we took more than a thousand photos altogether using ben gege's and our cameras.
and after we went back and bathed,kaka zura asked ben gege out and treated him to ice-kachang.the children[us],were assuming that something had happened between them for them to go out together.lol...btw
nothing much happened until the next day.then we went to the marine park and the coral island later.the marine park was absoulutely[?] nice.and i learnt how to snorkel there.and if you put rice or bread in the water,the fish will start coming and you can actually touch the fish while they're eating leh!
but you can't see the bottom of the park since it's part of the sea and the cordoned off one area for this park.and the boatmen's diving skills are just great.they can dive right down until you can't see them and then come up.cool!
then we saw sharks swimming quite close up,but nobody dared to touch them.haha....we went to the coral island after that.i ate lunch first before going into the water.it was so nice if you use the snorkel and look,you can see shoals and shoals of fish and corals.!
mummy got lost in her own world once she went into the water lah.and she ended up getting a sunburn on her face.we went fishing after that and i think zarif caught a super big parrot fish and mummy caught a savenger fish for the "closing ceremony"..
we threw it back afterwards cuz it was inedible and yeh.the cool thing is that the fish has a head shaped like the bottom of a boot to stick onto a shark according to ben gege.haha....after that auntie aisha and zafif took us to the small waterfall in the village.
it was nice,but there was just to many mosquitoes and the path there isn't cemented,it'slike an old man's route.and it's really freaky.but the water there is cooling.and once i put my hair in,it became soft and silky without me even putting the conditioner.
then had bbq.but before that,wew went to eat ice-kachang.then they have a different version of keropoke[?]whih is like fishcake but soft and not as chewy.we had bbq for dinner.and i learned how to eat a crawfish with the help of auntie aisha and ben gege.
lol.the crawfish was nice.the lobster was a bit of a disappointment cuz it tasted the same as the crawfish.then we ate prawn,crab...shiok.it was a true seafood bbq.with the parrot fish zarif caught.the other group of people didn't have it.lol
and we talked for very long,then we pestered zafif to bring us prawn fishing.haiz.but we didn't catch anything.but we saw the prawn lah.we didn't catch it cuz: zafif isn't skilled enough.zaine's better.haha.
we went back to sleep after that.i fell on the bed on went to sleep immediately.haha.theni woke up the next morning somewhat grouchy lah..haha.then i freshened up,and went to see the dunno what animal that the ah tok's trap caught.
haha.then we left.nothing much.cuz we had to leave early.8am.haha.but we promised to go back next year..haha..anyway,i'll post the pictures when i get them.cuz ben gege's camera had more photos.900+ photos.okies?gtg.haha
16/6/2008
[oh,and P.S....zafif is soooo cute!.but too shy for his own good]
09 June 2008
Number 118
heyys...haha.posted last thursday.well,friday was about the same,filled with reading fanfic from winglin.fanfic is seriously addicting.especially ones with a attractive storyline and characters you love.hah.
i've completed reading some other fanfics,but mostly,they're on hiatus.so xian.the stories are like stuck halfway with no ending and author's note saying they're busy with exams and other stuff.oh damn them.anyways,there're a few that are completed and i'm gonna pput the links in this post later.lols
on to saturday.well,since it was raining cats and dogs in the morning,we went to find the stuff for the tioman trip and we went to downtown east.woohoo!plus i got my DeCard and signed up for a nEbO.woah.i'm a total nEbOian.lol.
we wanted to go to etp [it's escape theme park for you morons.jk jk]but,we ended up going to www [it's wild wild wet for you idiots. jk jk]but i had sooo much fun i never had in ages!we went to shiok river,ur-lah-lah,wave pool..etc etc.then well,we wanted to go bowling,but to many people.so,yeah,we wwent home after that.so tired loh.
anyways,gtg.bb!
9/6/2008
links.
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/ariel_2011/ - _My Very Own Fairytale [quite funny.seriously.]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/mushiromigal02/ - My 29th Feb...I Will Remember You [another touching story by my fav author.but not as sad as from a distance.nice though]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/ArronYan/ - After The Cold Winter...Comes The Warm Spring [nice,but alot of grammatical errors.but nice and sweet though.typical arron/hebe storyline]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/xxAaronx/ - If Only You Knew [nice and sweet,features arron and hebe in a primary school kinda situation.innocent and naive.but mature at the same time]
i've completed reading some other fanfics,but mostly,they're on hiatus.so xian.the stories are like stuck halfway with no ending and author's note saying they're busy with exams and other stuff.oh damn them.anyways,there're a few that are completed and i'm gonna pput the links in this post later.lols
on to saturday.well,since it was raining cats and dogs in the morning,we went to find the stuff for the tioman trip and we went to downtown east.woohoo!plus i got my DeCard and signed up for a nEbO.woah.i'm a total nEbOian.lol.
we wanted to go to etp [it's escape theme park for you morons.jk jk]but,we ended up going to www [it's wild wild wet for you idiots. jk jk]but i had sooo much fun i never had in ages!we went to shiok river,ur-lah-lah,wave pool..etc etc.then well,we wanted to go bowling,but to many people.so,yeah,we wwent home after that.so tired loh.
anyways,gtg.bb!
9/6/2008
links.
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/ariel_2011/ - _My Very Own Fairytale [quite funny.seriously.]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/mushiromigal02/ - My 29th Feb...I Will Remember You [another touching story by my fav author.but not as sad as from a distance.nice though]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/ArronYan/ - After The Cold Winter...Comes The Warm Spring [nice,but alot of grammatical errors.but nice and sweet though.typical arron/hebe storyline]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/xxAaronx/ - If Only You Knew [nice and sweet,features arron and hebe in a primary school kinda situation.innocent and naive.but mature at the same time]
05 June 2008
Number 117
heys.sorry couldn't post yesterday.reason: reading too much of winglin.haha..winglin is seriously nice lah.so many stories i can read and find my inspiration from...though the grammatical errors are quite ridiculous.haha...
some of the stories are seriously sad.i practically cried through one of the stories.i'll give you the address at the end.and a sorta like poem the author composed for the story..i'll post that too.and anyway,if my msn friends go read that story,you'll find that my display name is from one of the sentences..
but don't rush to read it.read and cry.it's really sad..and anyways,the stories html i'm gonna post later are those that are already completed.which means end of story liao.so you can enjoy the story throughout without knowing the end.which is nice for a change.
anyway,for those who don't know winglin,winglin is a site where people from all over the world write stories based on fanfiction.meaning that the main character could be their favourite person in the ENTERTAINMENT industry.
and the stories usually have a happy ending rather than a sad ending.which is not so common.though winglin is a nice site,the grammatical errors are really really serious!well,the stories are nice.so well,i'll post the poem first before posting the addresses.okkays?.....lol.
5/6/2008
From A Distance (Poem)
From a distance i see you
Wish i could go right up to you and talk
But fear grip me
Hopefully one day you will smile at me again
~
From a distance
I admired you
Didn't know that you will say that of me
Why does my heart hurt so much
When i found out that you like her
~
From a distance
I saw you
I don't understand why my heart beats so fast
Whenever you seem so near...
~
From a distance
i saw you
my palms turn sweaty
i want to run away
but if i did
would you chase after me?
~
From a distance
i saw you smile
my heart almost missed a beat
just wishing you would smile at me
everyday...
~
From a distance
I saw your heart broke
unknowingly
my heart broke twice as much
dropping useless tears
that seem to be there whenever you need them.
~
From a distance
I saw you walk away from me...
My heart hurts...
I try to forget...
But it seems that it made me think of you more...
~
From a distance...
I saw you got hurt
i wanted to hold you but you pushed me away
why...am i that bad to you?
~
From a distance
i saw you
wondering if you will be alright
wondering if there is another shoulder for you
so that i won't see you hurt again
~
From a distance
You seem to be longing for her
I couldn't stand it anymore...
Why her not me
When she hurt you and i console you
Am I that bad to be with?
~
From a distance...
I saw you cared for me
I felt like the luckiest person ever
But i often asked myself
Will this last?
~
From a distance
we played together
why must you be so nice to me
just when i want to give up
~
From a distance
I look at your sad face
trying to think what you are thinking
please smile not frown
its all not worth it
but still i am satisfied
that i am near you right now.
~
From a distance
I could touch you
yet my eyes are filled with tears again
tears may not be a bad thing
i want to hold you
but it seems so impossible
but i can wait...i will wait~From a distance
I saw you and thought of you
Knowing what you like
I have everything planned out
so that you might like what you see
and perhaps
just perhaps you may start to like me too.
~
From a distance
I saw your smile
I thought i would be happy like you
But somehow I felt worse
I wanted to tell you how i felt
But something inside stopped me
Some people call fear of rejection
~
From a distance
I think you said you like me
But it wasn't the real me
what should i feel
In the verge of tears of sadness or joy
Why do i feel so mixed
as mixed as assortment nuts
Why is life so complicated
~
From a distance
I imagine things that never meant to be
dreaming,wishing of all things good
but then i realised
this is reality
that you will also be close yet so far
~
From a distance
I felt so trapped
tomorrow is the day i tell you i love you
will you accept me as who i am
or will you turn me down
but whatever happens
remember
i will still love you
but i will also disappear
cause a part of my heart then
will be shattered
into a million pieces
drenched in tears...
~
yet after so much...
from a distance
Before i confessed
I used to only think about you
now you hold me in your arms
and i know that you love me
no more tears shed
no more heartbreaks
no more just looking
from a distance...
Now for the adresses.:
some of the stories are seriously sad.i practically cried through one of the stories.i'll give you the address at the end.and a sorta like poem the author composed for the story..i'll post that too.and anyway,if my msn friends go read that story,you'll find that my display name is from one of the sentences..
but don't rush to read it.read and cry.it's really sad..and anyways,the stories html i'm gonna post later are those that are already completed.which means end of story liao.so you can enjoy the story throughout without knowing the end.which is nice for a change.
anyway,for those who don't know winglin,winglin is a site where people from all over the world write stories based on fanfiction.meaning that the main character could be their favourite person in the ENTERTAINMENT industry.
and the stories usually have a happy ending rather than a sad ending.which is not so common.though winglin is a nice site,the grammatical errors are really really serious!well,the stories are nice.so well,i'll post the poem first before posting the addresses.okkays?.....lol.
5/6/2008
From A Distance (Poem)
From a distance i see you
Wish i could go right up to you and talk
But fear grip me
Hopefully one day you will smile at me again
~
From a distance
I admired you
Didn't know that you will say that of me
Why does my heart hurt so much
When i found out that you like her
~
From a distance
I saw you
I don't understand why my heart beats so fast
Whenever you seem so near...
~
From a distance
i saw you
my palms turn sweaty
i want to run away
but if i did
would you chase after me?
~
From a distance
i saw you smile
my heart almost missed a beat
just wishing you would smile at me
everyday...
~
From a distance
I saw your heart broke
unknowingly
my heart broke twice as much
dropping useless tears
that seem to be there whenever you need them.
~
From a distance
I saw you walk away from me...
My heart hurts...
I try to forget...
But it seems that it made me think of you more...
~
From a distance...
I saw you got hurt
i wanted to hold you but you pushed me away
why...am i that bad to you?
~
From a distance
i saw you
wondering if you will be alright
wondering if there is another shoulder for you
so that i won't see you hurt again
~
From a distance
You seem to be longing for her
I couldn't stand it anymore...
Why her not me
When she hurt you and i console you
Am I that bad to be with?
~
From a distance...
I saw you cared for me
I felt like the luckiest person ever
But i often asked myself
Will this last?
~
From a distance
we played together
why must you be so nice to me
just when i want to give up
~
From a distance
I look at your sad face
trying to think what you are thinking
please smile not frown
its all not worth it
but still i am satisfied
that i am near you right now.
~
From a distance
I could touch you
yet my eyes are filled with tears again
tears may not be a bad thing
i want to hold you
but it seems so impossible
but i can wait...i will wait~From a distance
I saw you and thought of you
Knowing what you like
I have everything planned out
so that you might like what you see
and perhaps
just perhaps you may start to like me too.
~
From a distance
I saw your smile
I thought i would be happy like you
But somehow I felt worse
I wanted to tell you how i felt
But something inside stopped me
Some people call fear of rejection
~
From a distance
I think you said you like me
But it wasn't the real me
what should i feel
In the verge of tears of sadness or joy
Why do i feel so mixed
as mixed as assortment nuts
Why is life so complicated
~
From a distance
I imagine things that never meant to be
dreaming,wishing of all things good
but then i realised
this is reality
that you will also be close yet so far
~
From a distance
I felt so trapped
tomorrow is the day i tell you i love you
will you accept me as who i am
or will you turn me down
but whatever happens
remember
i will still love you
but i will also disappear
cause a part of my heart then
will be shattered
into a million pieces
drenched in tears...
~
yet after so much...
from a distance
Before i confessed
I used to only think about you
now you hold me in your arms
and i know that you love me
no more tears shed
no more heartbreaks
no more just looking
from a distance...
Now for the adresses.:
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/mushiromigal03/ - From A Distance [the really sad one,but love it lots.]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/myxmusic/ - Believe [bittersweet story.nice too.]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/lovie9/contents.shtml - Lies Hurt More Than Truth [sad but too short,but since it's a one-shot,fine.]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/aish7/contents.shtml - A Heart Of Pure,Cold Ice [nice story.]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/age_difference/contents.shtml - Age Difference [the language used is quite childish,even for 21-year-olds.]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/irisJade13/ - Confession [okay story,seriously short.]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/halky6/contents.shtml - Existing, Forever [love it lots.]
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/__laopo/contents.shtml - Worthless Trust [nice.and well done since it's done by two authors]
02 June 2008
Number 116
hey...i haven't posted in quite some time eh?well,nothing much happened after the last post until friday.cuz daddy went with nainai to china..haiz.until this wednesday lorrhs.so xian lah.well,i changed the address of the blog,but the posts are still there.haha.
went to downtown east yesterday to gabriel's birthday.it was nicer.seriously.we went with singyee,yiwen and her family,gabriel and helen ahyi and connie ahyi and ah ma plus us.that's all.haha.we went bowling.it was so fun!mummy helped he get a strike leh.so cool.
but mummy abit rusty liao lah.haiz.singyee was like the big winner loh.then connie ahyi tried playing,but the first time,she bowled,she fell down.it was hilarious not to say embarrassing lah.wah lao..lah.
then we went to kopitiam izzt,to eat the birthday cake.so nice from emicakes.it was a ice-cream cake lah.but soooo filling and i ate only one slice.anyways,the socks i borrowed from singyee,thanks!
then went the singapore expo for the popular fair.i bought a book which looked so nice.it's a dream dictionary.so if next time you have any dreams,you can come ask me.haha.then went the robinson's fair and walked past the hall which angela zhang shao han was having her concert at.
walked the door when it was opened,and saw her.from my point of view,she's like so small lah.but i didn't know what song singing lorrghs.anyway,the robinson's sale was so far away.it was next to the max pavilion lah.anyways,gtg.bye!and happy belated birthday,gabriel!
2/6/2008
went to downtown east yesterday to gabriel's birthday.it was nicer.seriously.we went with singyee,yiwen and her family,gabriel and helen ahyi and connie ahyi and ah ma plus us.that's all.haha.we went bowling.it was so fun!mummy helped he get a strike leh.so cool.
but mummy abit rusty liao lah.haiz.singyee was like the big winner loh.then connie ahyi tried playing,but the first time,she bowled,she fell down.it was hilarious not to say embarrassing lah.wah lao..lah.
then we went to kopitiam izzt,to eat the birthday cake.so nice from emicakes.it was a ice-cream cake lah.but soooo filling and i ate only one slice.anyways,the socks i borrowed from singyee,thanks!
then went the singapore expo for the popular fair.i bought a book which looked so nice.it's a dream dictionary.so if next time you have any dreams,you can come ask me.haha.then went the robinson's fair and walked past the hall which angela zhang shao han was having her concert at.
walked the door when it was opened,and saw her.from my point of view,she's like so small lah.but i didn't know what song singing lorrghs.anyway,the robinson's sale was so far away.it was next to the max pavilion lah.anyways,gtg.bye!and happy belated birthday,gabriel!
2/6/2008
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