i told myself..never to ever ever cry again.even if my future partner[s] find me unfeeling,that's too bad.cuz if you live in a family with an unreasonable mother,two physopath younger brothers,you have to make your heart hard enough to withstand the things that they say or do.
in my house,it's like the adults world.on the surface,we say we are best friend.or in this case,family.but actually,deep in our hearts,we somewhat hate each others guts and is always trying to burst their ego.but it's understandable.in school,the similar thing is happening too.
you can never trust someone too much.maybe it's because i've been betrayed by friend before,a very close one at that.to young children,having a best friend is called riches,but to me,having a best friend is like having a time bomb.i'm only waiting for it to explode.and betray me.
so,the case is not like what miss ong says.she says the best friendships are built during primary and secondary school.i beg to differ.the best friendships are built when you don't know what is called betraying and best friends.even if that kind of friendship is built,there is a 80% chance of that best friend betraying you.
people may say i don't trust people enough,but that was part of my upbringing.i'm wary of everybody,even my parents and my "closest friends" but i do have some good friends and i trust that they will not so something bad to me.but i can sense something not right again.haha.i'm not trusting at all.
after the incident with june.my feelings can be described by the song because of you,by kelly clarkson.anyways,during choir today,they had justin's mother to come do the choreographing[?]for the songs that we are singing for the syf.
who's justin?justin is the boy who acted as he ping's son in shou zu 2 [kinship 2]as he jun.and he also acted as the boy who is robert's eldest son [which i don't know the name]in yi fang ban ting yi shui gang [just in singapore].he's erika's classmate.and his mother is a 98.7fm deejay and an actress.she acted in my sassy neighbour as one of patricia mok's friend who also lives in bukit anang kambing.
her actions are like omg.anyways,gtg.watching yu le bai fen bai.bb!
19/3/2008
