this time's syf was better.the place was more occupied.it was brighter.we could see the judges. tried to feel as if i was performing in the esplanade.like last year.but no matter how deep i dug,the feeling was gone.i couldn't feel it.it was gone.just like that.i kept shifting my focus to the judges.why??
it was the first time i actually smiled throughout the performance.during practices,i smiled because of erika's silly jokes.they're actually quite funny.but it on;y lasted for a while.not even a song.ha.why?didn't see him today,
loved it while we were prforming on stage.somebody cried when we sang flying free.felt so good after erika told me.mr ong was there to watch the performance.i wonder how he felt.wanted to ask him.but i didn't dare,nor did we have the time.erika's parents came to watch her perform.why cant mine come?why are they so busy?they didn't even go for the esplanade performance.i felt so sad.i was like practically the only one who had my parents absent.
tears are welling up in my eyes now.i'd rather not dig these memories up.we were school number 89.they didn't announce this the last time.went to yalun's blog just a while ago.his theories are like reading a book.i wanna ask him,may i compile all this into a book?
went to rachel jiejie's blog too.quite nice,but i didn't have time to finish reading it.loving the song wo ke yi by cai man you.quite nice.mybe i can also bring him to watch the stars with me.watching the stars alone i seriously boring.can i actually bring him?
wore some stupid stockings/pantyhose.was so itchy.it wasn't even washed before we used it.it was sooo warm lah.then during practice,june was like singing all the wrong tunes.even when mr tan asked us to be quieter,she continued singing at the same rate.i almost wanted to get everybody in a2 to shut up right in the middle of the song.
i told mr tan,and pointed out all her mistakes.he said he probably would get her out to be one of the reserves.but he didn't.all he did was to talk to her.and mdm chua just asked her to lip sync.but in the end,she still sang.I HATE HER!!!!she shouldn't even be the same gender as me.i despise people like her.
she acted so chio to mr tan lah.then she caused huining to become a reserve.and she didn't come for so many practices.and she gets to perform in syf.what kind of logic is that?and during the "audition",the rest of the choir members got into to sing in the syf using their own capability.and her,she just got in.
and mr tan didn't even kick her out.i think he's too kind.if it was me,i would have kicked her out like donkey years ago.she couldn't even fully memorise the lyrics properly.then she wasn't singing and we complained to mdm chua that she got the credit when she didn't even sing.
we [erika,me and wen pin]listed an example.if we got gold,she would also get gold when she didn't even sing.she would get all the credit when she didn't even sing.then mdm chua said that she would write in her testimonial that her attendance wasn't regular.but i think she wouldn't even use choir as dsa to get into any school.she would use shotput [sacastically].
but anyway,wen pin,miaw hue,me and sunno who else had sorta "long" talk.i don't even know what to name it.but we talked to him about dsa,jc,the six-year integrated programme offered by some schools.and he told us that he had a student who couldn't handle the stress and went crazy in jc1.he said he saw what had happened to her.she
he said that those in victoria jc,raffles jc were the top group of students in singapore.that is what miss ong would call "students in a league of their own"and he told us that his son practiced the violin until the tendon in his wrist tore.just to get a gold with honours.and he told us that his son only got two hours of sleep a day.
and he advised us that if we think we cannot take the stress,don't go to jc.you might as well go to poly[tecnic].he said try to go to a secondary school with attachment to a jc.so that after the 'o' levels,you can go to that jc to try out for three months before choosing whether togo jc or poly.
anyway,went to the place beside tampines mrt station trying to get laced socks for choir loh. ended up buying a jacket.it's like super nice.when i wear it,it looks as if i'm wearing it inside out.then went to tampines mall,and saw the fila sale going on.i wanted to buy a bag,but on seeing that the queue was so long,i gave it up.
i shouldn't have done that.i'm so regreting it now.anyway,this is ike one of the longest posts ever.and sorry brandon lim.i wonder if you still remember.i screamed at you during sports day last friday.haha...was too fed up with the class and the other p6.gtg.bb! :)
21/4/2008
