Number 136

it was the psle listening comprehension today...had teachers from other schools to be invigilators. damn nerve-wrecking lah...it was soo quiet..not like the usual kong hwa style at all.btw,in the morning,when i was going to school,my neighbour also went lah.plus she was sitting her mother's boyfriend's car.woohoo!...NOT!guess what,she studies in canossa convent.a all girls school as i heard.oh!i'm so worried that she'll end up a lesbian!...NOT!

whatever,she was like acting so show-offy lah.she came back with a classmate,i gather.but,as i understand from past experience,her house is DAMN boring,can?i don't care whether she likes fei lun hai or whatever.cuz fei lun hai's for everybody to like....

back to listening comprehension.went to the hall,then the oas [optical answer sheet] was like so different from the school's.it was pink,instead of blue,and my name,index number and school and other deets were already printed!and like more that half the page was used for deets.the space where we shade was like so small!save alot of time!anyways,the chinese listening was much much easier than the english one.

anyways,i wanted to post yeaterday,but was too lazy,plus i stayed back till 3 plus just cuz ahdu wanted to go through our prelims compo with us.diao....anyways,i finally found out why qinlin had been ignoring me the past few days.y'know why?

cuz there was this video on my phone that while looking through my phone,huining watched it and alyssa also watched part of it.only qinlin didn't.that's why she had been ignoring me.BUT IT'S NOT MY FAULT!it's MY video,I choose the person I wanna let them see.

some good intentioned advice for qinlin:DON'T THINK THAT JUST BECAUSE YOUR ARE THE ONLY CHILD IN YOUR HOME,IT MEANS THAT EVERYBODY MUST LET YOU HAVE YOUR WAY ALL THE TIME LIKE WHEN YOU ARE AT HOME.PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT NOT EVERYBODY IS SUCH A PUSHOVER LIKE HUINING AND ALYSSA AND WILL LET YOU HAVE YOUR WAY ALL THE TIME.PEOPLE LIKE ME CAN'T STAND PEOPLE LIKE YOU WHO THINKS THAT YOU ARE THE QUEEN OF THE WORLD AND EVERYBODY MUST LET YOU HAVE YOUR WAY EVEN IF THEY ARE UNWILLING.ME FOR ONE,AM DISGUSTED BY YOUR BEHAVIOUR.YOU SAY DON'T SAY THAT YOU ARE FROM CHINA, BUT SAY THAT YOU ARE FROM SINGAPORE.AND YOU ONLY USE SINGAPORE AS A STEPPING STONE FOR YOU TO GO TO AMERICA TO STUDY WHEN YOU ARE OLDER. MIGHT AS WELL PROCLAIM YOURSELF AS AMERICAN NOW,AND GO TO AMERICA TO JOIN YOUR AUNT OR WHOEVER SHIT IT IS,AND SAVE US ALL THE MISERY OF HATING YOU.I DON'T CARE IF YOU IGNORE ME OR TREAT ME AS INVISIBLE,CUZ I DON'T BOTHER TO HAVE A FRIEND LIKE YOU.I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOU ACTING PITIFUL JUST TO GET THE SYMPATHY OF FRIENDS,ESPECIALLY BERWYN.I FEEL SO SAD FOR HIM,TO BE TWIRLED AROUND YOUR FINGER.I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOU,TRYING SO HARD ACTING THE GOOD GIRL IN FRONT OF THE TEACHERS,AND ACTING AS IF YOU REALLY CARE ABOUT STELLA.STOP STEALING MY FRIENDS LIKE YOU DID TO HUINING.I WON'T ACT LIKE ALYSSA OR HUINING ANYMORE,ACTING IGNORANT AND FULFILLING YOUR EVERY WHIM OR INSTRUCTION.I'LL TREAT YOU THE WAY I TREAT SERJEAN OR JUNE,WITH DESPISE AND HATRED.WHO CARES IF BERWYN FALLS OUT WITH ME.I'LL BE GLAD THAT I GOT YOU OUT OF MY SYSTEM!!!!!!

well,that's the advice for her..NOT!who cares if she's not friends with me anymore.she had never been from the start.the relationship with her was just an act.all an act.just a facade.like a hollow trunk,nice on the outside but no substance within.too bad!i was never eager to be friends with her anyway.i'm just glad i got all the anger out of my system.it's like a great load being lifted from my shoulders.yea!i feel so free!hahah...i gtg...soo bye!
12/9/2008