anyways,back to my day.it was terribly crappy.the only word i can use to descirbe my feeling now is - pissed - i'm totally pissed off.first this morning,when i finished all my stuff and wanted to sit down to drink my cup of milk,guess what?it's 6.55am already.so,i gulp all that down in like what,6mouthfuls???then,when i got to school - at gate 2 - i "suddenly" remembered that i forgot to sign the progress report.then i called home,asked daddy to come help me sign it.then the first bell rang.forget about signing that fucking progress report.i told myself.so i told daddy that i'd bring it home and let hime sign it later.and guess what he said,"you ah,always like that.one day, must give you one tight slap."
i was like "i don't give a damn!"but i didn't scream it in his face lah.mr ong there leh.then had the flag raising ceremony.then went to the hall to find the class and go back to the class with them. and guess what,the timetable's "frozen" again.cuz of the p3 & p4 orals.great.we had miss ong from 7.30am to 11am.then miss ong had her own periods at 11.30 - 12.30.wah lao.
then i totally forgot i hadn't memorise the dictation passage yet.double damn!i had to like cram it all into my head while miss ong taught.what the heck!then well,memorised it,did the stupid dictation.then mrs ooi gave us a "2nd pre-psle test".miss ong was like."i'll time you.1h 50min" great.did the english paper2,diao...
then went for recess.i wanted to get stella to go recess with me.before i could finish my sentence, she'd already gone off with ser jean and the sidekick,fang yun.i was like stumped.i was totally lost for words.it's like she never knew me in her life.then went recess on my own.met huiyun.we queued up at the same stall.then wanted to sit with her,but she left.so,on the way to go find shao shan to eat,my pair of chopsticks was knocked off my bowl by some boy from 6/2.
had to go back to the stall to take another pair,then find shao shan.and when i wanted to have a twosome recess with her,tricia had to come and spoil everything.i didn't have a nice time eating with her,nor did i have a nice time letting shao shan get squashed between tricia and i..
then went back to class.miss ong went through one of the worksheets and she said that cedric's, stella's and mine's answer was similar and she said that if a friend discusses the answer with us, we should say,"thank you ...,i know how to do this question already.i'll construct a NEW sentence of MY OWN now." that's what i said to en le after i asked her how to do a question.i was seething with anger.
the other pupils have tuition teachers to help them,they've got real friends to help them.what about me?i don't have tuition teachers,i don't have real friends,then what do i have?that's why i have to resort to this.it's something that i don't wanna resort to.why can't anybody understand that?everybody in class was looking at me as if i was the one that literally copied the answer from cedric.why can't everybody else blame stella too?
it's like i can never be myself.i must act in front of my "friends" just to be able to talk to them. why can't anyone understand that i just wanna be myself??????but i'm thankful that God gave me enle.she's like totally understanding and we share a common liking of books!
anyways,it didn't actually get worse from after school.but i was totally happy yesterday.during piano lesson,the teaher said next year,i'll be taking grade 4 theory and grade 3 practical!woohoo! if you're thinking why i'm only at grade 3,it's cuz i stopped learning for like 2years,then continued learning last year.and i'm getting a piano!should be next week or so.by then i'll be able to practice properly.
and on monday,i felt like a new person.i was really happy that day.it was pure happiness.thank God!and my new favourite song now is "This is the day that the Lord has made" or something like that.the music's cool and the lyrics are even cooler!
anyways,i gtg.it's 9days to the psle and i totally gotta study!!!byes!
24/9/2008
