SYF was disappointing, cause we knew that we all knew that the GOLD was within our grasp. In the end, we got another pathetic SILVER. All cause the judges gave too many golds and GWH in the first two days. If it's not unfair, I really don't know what to call it.
Occasionally I'd still think about it. And if I'm in the mood, I'll relate it all over again. But it never fails to bring tears to my eyes. Two years worth of hard work, practice after practice. The strong friendship bonds that we formed. All over in the blink of an eye.
I'm really grateful for the opportunity to play for Cedar, CSB and my lovely section, Clarinet. Though I've had my heart broken, I really cherish the fact the the band is so bonded now, in ways that we've never imagined.
Btw, my heart was really broken. I now know how to people feel when they get dumped.
So now we're moving on, on to Arts Fest. I'm not bothering to invite anybody, cause all CSB is going to play is some crap march and Persis. And fatman's conducting. How depressing.
The exams are looming, and I'm not in the least prepared. I haven't done revision in ages, I don't know the concepts, and my maths is horrendous. I really don't know what to do with maths. It's like I'm falling deeper and deeper into a pit of "I-don't-know".
I still love bio with a passion. :) chem got a lil boring. I still love hist and geog. Only if I didn't have to take maths and chem. I'd be the happiest girl in the world.
I need some rearranging of my life. Cause I feel so targetless. I'm just going through day by day, although each day is different.
I shall watch Hello Baby now to destress. It's the SHINee version, btw. <3
17.04.2011
