Well, I'm back.
Haha I'm pretty glad it's still here, even though it's been non-existent in my life since the last post. Many things have happened since then and I don't think I got the dedication and time to pen every single one down.
But I guess I'll be back here more often, to read my old posts and to laugh at myself, at how immature and dumb I was back then and to see how much I've grown since then.
Maybe having a place to rant will be better than Twitter because I have a feeling I'm flooding all of my followers' timelines with my angst and pessimism. I also presume this will be more time-efficient than writing everything out. Haha.
Speaking of writing, I promised to write my cousin a letter, y'know the snail mail kind, and mail it to him over in the US. But, as all procrastinators do, I didn't. Hope I do find the time to, because I think writing letters are very sweet and they slow things down. Because what I really want now is for time to slow, take a breather, maybe go for a walk.
The first term of JC is over and everything's going too fast for my liking. I find myself wishing harder and harder that I were back in Cedar, still that obnoxious sec4 who had seen everything to be seen in the school. I don't like this uncertainty that lingers around everywhere and how anxiety keeps creeping up on me whenever I let my guard down.
The past 2 months have been trying, and I'm glad that I have learnt at least one thing from it all: to lean on God with my entire being and to be more sensitive to His Spirit, His Voice and His Touch. All these may sound cliche, but take it from me. It's not. And when I find myself consciously doing this, it becomes second nature to me and everything just falls into place.
'But seek first His kingdom and His righteousness and all these things will be added unto you as well.' - Matthew 6:33
