It was a pretty weird feeling, because I felt so exposed during the bus ride and it made me so uncomfortable.
The bus route went past places that hold many memories for me, and places where I spent much of my childhood at. It just felt very uncomfortable that he knows/knew where I alight, and where my childhood was spent, even if he may not know what it means to me. It's like I opened up a part of my heart for the world to see and I don't even know him that well.
Just felt so exposed and I was so restless on the bus, sigh it's like I lost all my face in front of him. But it's not like he cares heh.
Maybe he thinks I'm a stalker now cause I took the same bus, since hardly anyone from school takes the same bus. Boohoo, but maybe this is just an effect of my over-thinking. I just hope so.
I barely got myself to ignore the fact that he's in school and that he grabs my attention ALL THE TIME and then that bus ride had to ruin all that grrr sometimes I'm so upset at myself for feeling this way ohhhhh damn why can't I just ignore him grr.
I'll work on it.
In the meantime, I've got GP and geog to do.
