Number 353

the last day of school was...epic. cried lots. i didn't even cry during graduation in p6 lah. HAHA. so heartless. oh well. my tap was turned on today, then it sorta couldn't really close properly. :(

so, went to school as usual. :) spammed the camera. haha. did billy manja with the class. sat down to play double whacko. cleared lockers. sat down again and did something else. and started crying.

i was actually...like, yeah, we'll see each other again. then when the people who were going to IP started talking. i started crying. maybe cause Vanessa was crying bucket loads too. :'( yep. thankyou Eunice. teehee.

mekong river arh. now drought lah. :P

the tap was turned on, then couldn't close! :S hugged classmates. happy happy. still crying. took pretty long to settle down. then we took class photo. wah thanks ah. wait until my eyes red and swollen then you wanna take photo.

got Ms Chye to help us take photo. :) polaroids are awesome.

then there was band prac. so anti-climax! and then there were o levels at the same time. we couldn't play loudly, talk. blah. might as well cancel band prac right.

so anyway, i'm thankful for 2C. though we may not be the most fantastic class ever or the most bonded class or the best according to academic ability. we are still the most awesome class. we have our faults and imperfections. we can't stand some of our classmates.

but so what. we're 2C and we're awesome. and we got 2nd for Best Class Award. in your face.

:( i don't really know my classmates. and i spent 2 years with them. what was i doing?

even so, i'm thankful for 2C. and our fantabulous teachers. :D

and now it's time to upload the photos. before the class spams me. HAHA. :D

28.10.2010

Number 352

i love people with cars. HAHA. they're awesome cause i get a ride. :D

had lunch with Jeremy, Taiyong, Joseph, Caleb and Aaron. :D haha. 5 bodyguards. woo~ had prawn mee. tsk tsk. so sinful arh. told you to go to old airport road right? HAHAHA. :P

it was nice. teehee.

got back the results on friday and i'm very determined not to think about it. they're horrendous TTM. i did pretty badly for geog. and i usually do well for it. and i'm like one mark away from A for science. gah.

the only saving grace was that i passed maths. :D and i got the congruency and similarity question all correct. haha. thank God. :D and 2C topped the level for english and science. :D awesome awesome.

and well, i did pretty well for english. haha. but i'm still very pissed with my results. cannot stand it.

oh wells, decided on which subjects i wanna take already. which is good, cause i know of a lot of people who are still stuck. heh. all i hope is that i can get the subjects that i want. :S

so, got some of the holiday homework already. got chinese and chem homework already! and ss won't be much fun either. oh yeah, the Sri Lankan conflict will be so fun to write about. and i'm not looking forward to getting english and maths homework.

and i got my huge uniforms already. muahahaha. i like big big uniform. :)

anyway, i woke up on the wrong side of the bed today. haha. feeling very sarcastic and tired today. heh. i'm so awesome. oh wells. powerpraise today was fun. thank God for James who joined us for 2nd.

been thinking lots, but i can't think of any right now. so i'm going to be bim and type random stuff. haha.

can't wait for the early release tomorrow. :D who wants lunch with me? HAHA.

24.10.2010

Number 351

Oh, her eyes, her eyes make the stars look like they're not shinin'
Her hair, her hair falls perfectly without her tryin'
She's so beautiful
And I tell her everyday

Yeah, I know, I know when I compliment her, she won't believe me
And it's so, it's so sad to think that she don't see what I see
But every time she asks me do I look okay?
I say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
'Cause girl, you're amazing
Just the way you are

Her lips, her lips, I could kiss them all day if she'd let me
Her laugh, her laugh, she hates but I think it's so sexy
She's so beautiful
And I tell her everyday

Oh, you know, you know, you know I'd never ask you to change

If perfect's what you're searching for, then just stay the same

So don't even bother asking if you look okay

You know I'll say

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
'Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are

And when you smile

The whole world stops and stares for a while

'Cause girl, you're amazing

Just the way you are

The way you are

The way you are

Girl, you're amazing

Just the way you are

When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
'Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are

And when you smile

The whole world stops and stares for a while

'Cause girl, you're amazing

Just the way you are, yeah

- Just The Way You Are (Bruno Mars)

haha. don't get me wrong, people. i'm totally straight. HAHA. just that, if a guy sings this to me, my heart would totally melt. :)

20.10.2010

Number 350

thankyou to the person who got me home in record time today. :) haha. it was awesome, really. and getting home early was great, cause my tummy was about to render me unable to walk.

the NE carnival today was better than expected. and the highlight was...Ms Thang dressing up in the chinese opera costume. makeup and all. haha. photos will be up on FB. :P

but the NE talk was awesome pretty good. really brought up stuff that i can a misconception about. like seriously. foreigners coming to Singapore and feeding all sorts of things into our brains. saying that we hang the most people and our laws are very strict and we have no freedom of speech to name a few.

seriously. if you never did anything that's against the law, would you be afraid of the strict laws? i would say no. duh. which person in the right mind would say yes?! and our freedom of speech. sure, we're not able to insult our PM on national tv unlike the US. but our broadcasters are able to say 'Merry Christmas' on air. unlike the US.

and well, we are given the right of responsible freedom of speech. seriously lah. Singapore's awesome. no matter what shit and crap foreigners say about Singapore. foreigners are foreigners. not only the angmohs are powerful and should be given special rights cause they're white.

in a nutshell, Singapore is awesome. people who come here and criticise are people who don't know better. they think just because they work in the CBD and stay in landed property means they know what's going on. oh pooey. no, you don't.

go to the heartlands and see dude. stop staying in your posh landed property thinking that you're better than everybody else cause you work in CBD. and you smoke.

again, Singapore is awesome. do we have earthquakes? no. do we have hurricanes? no. do we have huge protests? no. do we have volcanic eruptions? no. number of natural disasters, zero. (that is, if not counting the flooding at Orchard Road. HAHA. but that's irrelevant)

we've got a squeaky clean government. and whoever said squeaky clean was bad was totally WRONG. and Singapore is just awesome. and whoever said that NE is propaganda is WRONG.

and. Christian Chua is an awesome speaker. HAHA. funny funny. :D

band was just totally sucky. hard reeds and hurting abdomens. how awesome is that. thank God it was self-prac. :D rumbah and no more blues can go suck my socks. Mr Ong plays them so slowly and i can fall asleep while playing.

seriously. and well, my reputation for falling asleep anywhere and everywhere is quite awesome. haha. even during band. :P

the school is just totally...ugh. they take away marking day and leave us with one pathetic promotion day. and on promotion day, there's band prac as usual. why can't it be moved to the morning manz. thanks arh.

oh wells. section lunch tomorrow anyway. can't wait. HAHA.

20.10.2010

Number 349

Don't know much about your life.
Don't know much about your world, but
Don't want to be alone tonight,
On this planet they call earth.

You don't know about my past, and
I don't have a future figured out.
And maybe this is going too fast.
And maybe it's not meant to last,

But what do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

I just want to start again,
And maybe you could show me how to try,
And maybe you could take me in,
Somewhere underneath your skin?

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?

Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

And I had my heart beating down,
But I always come back for more, yeah.
There's nothing like love to pull you up,
When you're laying down on the floor there.
So talk to me, talk to me,
Like lovers do.
Yeah walk with me, walk with me,
Like lovers do,
Like lovers do.

What do you say to taking chances,
What do you say to jumping off the edge?
Never knowing if there's solid ground below
Or hand to hold, or hell to pay,
What do you say,
What do you say?

Don't know much about your life
And I don't know much about your world

- Taking Chances (Glee Cast)

to you, boy, to you.

Number 348

emo emo.

i'll be retreating back into my lonely existence. jolt me if you need me.

i'm posting so many times. this is bad.

15.10.2010

Number 347

the art LJ to Singapore River was quite fun. seriously. if only our art lessons were like that all the time. learning about abstract, realistic and stylised art. whether high or bas relief. looking at the different sculptures at Singapore River.

the sculptures were really cool. learnt the Morbius thing thing. so really cool. haha. fascinated! :D but i seriously feel that the LJ to orchard road would be more fun. it's about the art of celebration. whereas the one to Singapore River was about our dreams and aspirations.

and well, most of the sculptures are owned by banks who occupy skyscrapers. the sculptures were all channeling the same vibe. to earn more money. go figure.

so, it was really cool, except for the people who kept smoking. oh well, i guess people who work in skyscrapers smoke. yuck. gross much.

spammed Nadja's DLSR at macs during the break and on the bus back. haha. super fun. so now i know why people fall in love with photography. and the DSLR makes me look so pro. haha. woots.

hmmm, let's see whose camera i can spam next. HAHA. *hint hint*

reached school at 12. like almost 2hours before the scheduled timing. well, 2C is awesome like that. :D really sad for the people who had CCA today. :( anyway, waited in class for Carolyn Ying and Shiree.

we talked crap, from like 12plus until 1.50 when Jingwen came. and i fell asleep. very good. apparently the sec3 had some chinese enrichment thingy. they had 1h50min to write one zuowen. wow. and who's taking the Chinese o level's next month?

went to Clarke Quay to have Subway! and i had to order for Jingwen. wow. so much for eating Subway before arh. so funny. the guy looked at me like i was some freak ordering two meals. and i must say, the sandwich artists there are very generous with the pickles. HAHA. happy. :D

went to Sticky after that, and there was nothing there. *horrified face* and there was a snaking queue all the way to the next shop. and it was so funny cause we saw some sec1s queuing there too. and the smell was SO SO SO strong.

oh wells. took the mrt with Carolyn Ying back to the green line. HAHA. Green line FTW. and home at last. phew. haha. tired tired.

oh, i slept VERY VERY WELL last night. haha. lay down on the bed and fell into a deep deep sleep until just before my alarm clock rang. thank my Daddy! :D though i was still tired during the day. haha.

and i think Laminin rocks. :D and Louie Giglio. HAHA. awesome speaker. was watching one of his sermons during lesson on sunday. for the How Great Is Our God tour. awesome. my God is awesome.

you know, i think of alot of things that i want to post here all the time. but then when i come to post, i can't think of what i wanted to post. haha. i think it's called STM, if i'm not mistaken? haha.

oh yes. Isabel sent me a message sometime back. and i think it's really encouraging. not like those chain messages that scare people. haha. they're not true! so here's it:

'When you carry the Bible, Satan has a headache. When you open it, he collapses. When he sees you reading it, he faints. So let's read the Bible every time, even though we may be tired! (Maybe one day he'll have a stroke and never wake up) And did you also know that when you are about to forward this message to others, Satan will discourage you, but forward it anyway. DON'T let him stop you. :)'

well, it's encouraged me to do QT even though it's late and there's an exam the next day. and well, i'm not forwarding this through phone, but through the internet! so a wider audience will be reached right! awesome. and i'm not using up what precious messages i have. haha.

yes, be encouraged! we're all warriors for God! :D

15.10.2010

Number 346

[Spoken:]
Don't look at me

Every day is so wonderful
And suddenly, it's hard to breathe
Now and then, I get insecure
From all the pain, I'm so ashamed

I am beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring me down
I am beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring me down
So don't you bring me down today

To all your friends, you're delirious
So consumed in all your doom
Trying hard to fill the emptiness
The piece is gone left the puzzle undone
That's the way it is

You are beautiful no matter what they say
Words can't bring you down
You are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring you down
Don't you bring me down today

No matter what we do
(no matter what we do)
No matter what they say
(no matter what they say)
When the sun is shining through
Then the clouds won't stay

And everywhere we go
(everywhere we go)
The sun won't always shine
(sun won't always shine)
But tomorrow will find a way
All the other times

'cause we are beautiful no matter what they say
Yes, words won't bring us down, oh no
We are beautiful in every single way
Yes, words can't bring us down
Don't you bring me down today

Don't you bring me down today
Don't you bring me down today

- Beautiful (Glee Cast)

we are all beautiful. the only reason why I used the Glee Cast version is cause I was watching Glee. and well, it fits into the context more than the original. so yes, we're all beautiful. maybe not on the outside. but don't let anyone tell you that you're the opposite. :)

14.10.2010

Number 345

the exams are over. haha. it hasn't really set in it. and i still feel like studying. well, i'm just weird like that. heh. oh wells, it's full-time slacking now. from studying. haha.

the school library has me wanting to puke right now. haha. been cooped up in the library the whole of last week and the past few days just studying non-stop. and i found out one thing. i can concentrate better while studying on white tables. HAHA.

and Mrs Lim is the coolest teacher EVER. she's more than half a century old, has red cropped hair with a super cool fringe, wears GREEN skinnys, and the occasional purple and listens to SHINee. HAHAHAHA. so yesterday, cause there were guests at the school, and i think the teachers were supposed to bring them around.

then Mrs Lim brought them to the library and she said hello to the librarian in a singsong voice, then turned to the people studying and said in the same manner, "Hello girls!" HAHA. it was so awkward. and i almost burst out laughing. heh. but Mrs Lim's cool like that.

the exams were pretty much okay, except for a certain annoying invigilator. making weird noises with his mouth and coughing like crazy, comes in late to give out the scripts, has a burnt hole in his pants, collects slowly. and the only reason why i noticed was because i sat at the front. and well, i was VERY annoyed TTM by him throughout the four days.

totally couldn't concentrate during the paper. oh, did i mention, he doesn't take notice of the clock when we're supposed to start and pays extra extra attention when we're about to end? RAGH.

so, well, blame him for being inexperienced. inexperienced teachers shouldn't be invigilating exams. especially when it's streaming. well. and he stares at me. seriously. caught him a few times. totally pissed me off. plus he stares at my paper for SUPER SUPER long. ANNOYING.

still, the exams were crap. prayed alot alot alot alot. for everybody else in school taking the exams too. and i hope it helped. heh. and thank God they're over. it's the end of something called mindless mugging too. haha.

oh. was watching The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button just now. haha. it's pretty nice. i think it was well directed. :) pretty touching. at the part when he left his daughter and all cause he was growing young. and i wonder why i didn't catch it the time when it came out. haha. made me tear quite a few times. heh.

so. the lit exam was...i wasn't really prepared. haha. didn't even know whether i wanted to do themes or characterisation. so i did characterisation in the end. haha. it was easier than the themes question. lovely.

been using quotes from Twelfth Night. and i think they're really meaningful. sometimes. haha. but i have to get down to reading the whole play. aww man. i like the notes that Mr Sng prepared for us. haha. much nicer to read than the book itself.

the history exam was...haha. just haha. all of us thought the WWII would come out for source based, but instead it came out for essay. HAHA. and well, as expected, Separation and Merger came out for essay. and i did WWII. HAHA. looked pretty simple. and one of the essays was done before! :D

argh. the next thing coming up is the competition at Genting. what an awesome competition eh. missing CM camp cause of it. RAWR. i still want the camp tee!! :P it's non-stop band mugging from now on. Singapore Rhapsody and Persis. i wanna play Persis again! :D

here's a quote from The Curious Case Of Benjamin Button:

'For what it's worth: it's never too late or, in my case, too early to be whoever you want to be. There's no time limit, stop whenever you want. You can change or stay the same, there are no rules to this thing. We can make the best or the worst of it. I hope you make the best of it. And I hope you see things that startle you. I hope you feel things you never felt before. I hope you meet people with a different point of view. I hope you live a life you're proud of. If you find that you're not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again.'

- Benjamin Button (Letter to his daughter)

14.10.2010

Number 344

OH OH OH. i forgot. when i was doing history yesterday, i found that actually Lim Chin Siong was actually quite a handsome guy! HAHA.

but to tell the truth, he's really power. at 20, he was already the leader of a communist party in Singapore. and he was only 20.

how many people are like that at 20? we're mostly still sheltered in Singapore. heh.

still, he was communist.

yes. he was a cute guy. hehe. :)

and i shall cram science tomorrow. :S
06.10.2010

Number 343

today was...full of surprises. maths lesson was mistakenly thought of as history, awesome science consultation during Ms Thang during science lesson. the last english and lit periods of the year. aww man. i like lit.

i like the way Mr Sng would teach lit if we didn't have to be prepared for the exams. a room with cushions and curtains, light a candle, sit down and discuss poems or a text. we'll laugh and cry and everything else. i'd really love that. and the exams have to spoil everything.

TOP period was crap. i was sleeping for the first part of it. the hall was so cold. anyway, i view myself growing taller. so i'd better grow taller.

gah. the band thingy took up so much of my time. i wanted to study in the library! without lunch. haha. somebody treated me lunch! :D but at 4. heh. punctual...NOT.

managed to study the lit characterisation notes at Carls' Jr. but it was so so so so so so cold. and i've got like HALF of the notes to study still. gah. and i've still got science and maths.

the library shall be my hole for tomorrow and friday and every other weekday till the end of exams. yes. and i shall smile. and laugh. more. yup. i will.

oh oh oh. yesterday's SEL was SUPER funny. haha. Ms Thang was telling us the stages of getting to know a guy to getting married. so apparently going out for lunch/dinner and texting are considered part of dating. HAHA.

in that case, i'd be "dating" multiple guys manz! :S not good. HAHA. and i shouldn't let a guy hold my hand. heh.

so so so, i'm still not feeling the stress of the exams, is that good or what? haha. ah well. i still mug like CRAZY. like a CRAZY woman. study studu study.

but what is defined as studying?

making notes? reading the text? memorising the text word-for-word? highlighting the whole text?

i can't define what's studying and well, i don't fancy memorising.

oh wells. i wanna catch the studying bug. :)
06.10.2010

Number 342

God Will Make A Way - Don Moen

God will make a way
Where there seems
to be no way
He works in ways we cannot see
He will make a way for
me

He will be my guide
Hold me closely to His side
With love and
strength for each new day
He will make a way, He will make a way

By a roadway in the wilderness, He'll lead me
And rivers in the desert will I see
Heaven and Earth will fade but His Word will still remain
And He will do something new today

this was what i took away from powerpraise today. and i believe i didn't take it away by chance. nothing happens by chance.

Your Name - Paul Baloche, Glenn Packiam

As morning dawns and evening fades
You inspire songs of praise
That rise from earth to touch Your
heart and glorify Your Name

Your Name is a strong and mighty tower
Your Name is a shelter like no other
Your Name let the nations sing it louder
'Cause nothing has the power to save
But Your Name

Jesus, in Your Name we pray
Come and fill our hearts today
Lord, give us strength to live for You and glorify Your Name

this was another thing i took away. real meaningful songs.

difficult times now, it's a challenge and a struggle. cause it's streaming. maybe it will not be a big deal in a few years time, but it's the biggest deal now.

but what i took away from service today, was to put God first. as my All In All. because then God will be in my everything and anything. the ultimate number one.

exams are coming. and i suddenly feel this oppressing cloud of darkness hovering over me. maybe not so much about the other subjects, but especially for maths. i need to practise, practise and practise even more. with less than two weeks to the exam, i'm stressed like nobody's business.

spent an afternoon studying at church. study until fall asleep. aiyo. so phail. i will study at the library everyday starting tomorrow after school. one subject everyday. yes. i'll start with geog. and i will study alone. else i'll get distracted.

there's only one reason why i'm so stressed now. to quote Gillian, i studied too little, too late. really.

on a lighter note, i got my piano exam results. :) surprise surprise, i got distinction! :D i seriously think the examiner's ears were a little phail. ahaha. my playing wasn't that fantastic. and aural was shit. how could i have gotten a distinction?

but still, i'm thankful for the results. regardless of whether the examiner's ears were a little off. haha.

and i like Bach. haha. i've chose Bach for the next exam piece. i love that song. :) left hand running notes are awesome. haha.

the Lord will be my Strength, my Provider and my Peace.
03.10.2010

Number 341

today's assembly was really good. i don't understand why Cedarians have to laugh. seriously. so what if it's not the pop music that we usually listen to? classical music is still beautiful. even if it's a little hard to comprehend at times.

and the aria that the soprano sang was really cool. how many of us can even reach that high? seriously. and the guzheng was cool. who actually thought of relating the title to the music? it was really nice. and the violin. it was good!

seriously. we shouldn't just become robots who're just good at maths and science. maybe sports too. we should be appreciative of the arts too! it's not like only sports is the only thing that we have to practice hard for. the arts requires the same if not more hard work.

i miss going for band! i tried practising at home once. my tone was crap. really bad. shit. i want to go back to the band room to practice!

Twelfth Night is really good. as much as i cannot score in lit, i like Twelfth Night. maybe cause i can understand the play better already. thanks to Mr Sng's really comprehensive notes. they're really really really comprehensive x1000 times. haha.

understanding the play also means i understand more of Shakespeare! haha. awesome playwright. :)

the way women love and men love are really different. and the inborn characteristics of women are really brought out in the play! and well, Shakespeare's sympathetic towards women. because women are fragile beings and have to be treated with care. :) and men are just...ugh. haha.

children's day was fun. though there was still school. Ms Thang gave us really the old school thing! and ewk's was uexpected. personalised somemore. haha. and i like Mr Sng's! haha. the sweets that will pop when it gets into the mouth! :D i like. haha.

THANKYOUS. :D haha. Ms Thang's present actually proves that she actually has even an iota of feeling, unlike what she said.

the interview for the humans trip next year was today! oh gah. i think i screwed it up! still. it was so much of a section thing. HAHA. and we distracted Jingwen. heh. and i feel so proud of it. HAHA. :P

my phone's revived. YAY. it means longs texts and no more scrolling one thousand times just to read a message. hahahahahahah.
01.10.2010

Hot N Cold - Katy Perry

You change your mind like a girl changes
clothes
Yeah, you change your mind like a girl I would know
And you always think, always speak cryptically
I should know that you're no good for me

'Cause you're hot and you're cold
You're yes and you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

You're wrong when it's right
You're black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We hug, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
But you, you don't really wanna go, oh

'Cause you're hot and you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

We used to be just like twins, so in sync
The same energy now's a dead battery
Used to laugh 'bout nothing, now you're plain boring
I should know that you're not gonna change'

Cause you're hot and you're cold
You're yes and you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

You're wrong when it's right
You're black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We hug, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
But you, you don't really wanna go, oh

You're hot and you're cold
You're yes and you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love disorder
Stuck on a roller coaster
Can't get off this ride

You change your mind like a girl changes clothes

'Cause you're hot and you're cold
You're yes and you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

You're wrong when it's right
You're black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We hug, we make up

You, you don't really wanna stay, no
But you, you don't really wanna go, oh

You're hot and you're cold
You're yes and you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

guy, you remind me of this song real bad.