i'm totally bored outta my wits.the F1 Singapore Grand Prix is showing on channel 5 now,and it's totally boring.it's just watching a bunch of cars [more precisely,go-karts]...if you're watching,F. Massa's fuel line got stuck there and omg.it was damn exciting.i bet he's damn pissed off now. anyway,back to where i was.i totally support lewis hamilton.he's not only cute,he smiles damn brightly.he's so cute lah!
anyways,i can't wait for the results.i hope lewis hamilton win.it's the first night race ever,and it's held in Singapore!it's a city race.right in the middle of the city.damn cool.so proud of Singapore!lol.btw,the piano i got yesterday,some keys are really off and well,let's say it's really really old,so there's like the white thingys on the piano.it's still in good condition other than those two problems.
whatever.didn't go to church today.know why?cuz they went to the zoo to celebrate children's day.i totally didn't want to go.cuz you have to go to church at 8am and you only go back there at 3pm.oh please.it's so damn boring.plus you still have to pay $10.maybe it's quite cheap,but you still have to wear red.omg.how hideous is that?!it's totally attract flies.ewww...gross!
anyways,had a very nice dream last night.it was me being a really famous socialite and i was organising this really nice cocktail party at the marina bay.hahah.lol.and there was this part when the man of my dreams asked me to dance with him!omg.come to think of it,it's quite hilarious actually.hahahahahahahahah.
then i had kfc for breakfast.at home.lol.then i spent the morning practicing on the piano and figuring out how to play 怎么办 by s.h.e....it was quite an accomplishment actually.but there were quite a few out of tunes and i can't blame myself.blame the piano.then we ate lunch.at 2pm.
we [daddy,me,kaikai & changchang]watched a movie about racing on channel 5.it was quite nice.i forgot the name.heheh.then me,kaikai and changchang went downstairs to play badminton.guess what.the basement was occupied by some stupid car.so we went to the first floor.there was howling wind a nice breeze,which disrupted the course of the shuttlecock.curse the cc for not letting us book the court. then we sorta argued more than we played.damn boring.and unsurprisingly,i was stuck in the middle again.i had to pacify the younger one,and had to stop the older one from fighter with the elder one.LUCKY ME...NOT! we went swimming afterwards.it was kinda weird,swimming again,after a very very long haitus. hahah.i had my reasons.we had sooo much fun.more fun than we ever had that day.we jumped from the edge into the pool with different "styles",like imitating an animal.i sorta just collasped by laughing.and i almost slipped and fell trying to catch my bro. we came up with different things.like a frog flying,a monkey flying and some others.we did the catwalk..hahah!anyways,went back upstairs after bathing and went online,no one was online hah.ate like a dozen waffle biscuits[yay!i finally know how to spell "biscuits"]then went to have a short nap. ate hor fun for dinner.it was NICE!it was from the coffeeshop downstairs of ahma's house.i love their hor fun.one of my favs.hahah.actually,speaking of which,there's like practically no one online now.except benben 哥哥 and sinyao.benben 哥哥 seems to be online 24/7,while sinyao's online whenever i'm online.but i guess he's online more often than i.but less than benben 哥哥.oh and,i've fallen irevocably[?]in love with jay chou's new song: dao xiang aka 稻香. i don't feel like studying.but it's not the studying now.it's the revision.i like totally gotta file up my worksheets.tomorrow.hahah.procrastinating!!i just wanna keep up with this kinda schedule now,until the psle is over.and after that,i'll have alot to worry.with soo much stuff on my hands. once the psle's over,i gotta start preparing my budget for the farewell party and memorise theory stuff.plus practice the pieces.omg!but that's all better than studying nonetheless.haha. wanna go watch the Grand Prix now to pass time!byes!~ it's officially : 5 days to the PSLE. 28/9/2008
yayy!i got my piano!woohoo!HAHAH.i got my piano at around 2.30pm just now,it was damn cool.although it was is really old,and there is like white stuff on it - it's not algae or fungus though - and the keys area teensy weensy bit off key.but it's still nice no matter what.it's like in my room,and my room looks so damn small now.lol.
woke up today,then daddy was like,"you go with me to the petrol kiosk and buy the newspaper and bread.get the gardenia bread ahh."then i went with him lohhs.then on the way back,he bought "paos"/buns and he dropped me off on the downstairs of my house,just outside the gate.
then i went back in,then mummy woke up,so we [kai,me and mummy]started cleaning up and clearing up my room.kaikai and i took my matress,bolster,pillow and blanket upstairs to sun. then i took out the vacuum cleaner to sorta "suck" my room.hahah.i took out everything,"threw" them outside in the middle of the hall and started clearing out my room.
then there was this quarter-circle sorta cupboard in my room.we cleared it up,then tried to bring it upstairs to sun since it was really damp and there was this dead cockroach which was wrapped up in dust.omg.my hairs are standing up.back to the cupboard.mummy and i carried it to the kitchen and into the doorframe which connected the stairs to the house.
then we sorta got stuck in the middle of it and tried alot of different ways to try to get it through.then it got stuck there.by the time we figured out the way to get it through,then thing was terribly stuck.lol!we pulled it out,then changed the direction then finally got it through.
getting it through was one problem,getting it up was another.i was like at the top,so technically, it's supposed to be easier.so,i had to get two steps above the required,then squat down to help mummy to carry it up.omg i was laughing soo hard that i had to use extra strength to carry it up. we finally got it up,then went back to cleaning my room.whatever happened after that is nothing worth mentioning.it's very normal,rearranging the shelves,putting things back and everything else.then we ate cup noodles for lunch.yeah!hahahahahahahahahahahah. then the movers came,and i got the piano.today was quite interesting,but was soo whatever and random.rewind to yesterday,after supplementary with mrs ooi,stella and i went to ask mrs ooi about a maths question,and she made us wait for 1/2 an hour!when she finally came,she brought us downstairs to the benches outside the general office and staff room. she explained the two sums to us,then we spent the rest of the 2hours chitchatting.hahah!i reached home at like 5pm.i like totally "wasted" my afternoon at school.lol.but through the chitchat,i found out that mrs ooi isn't as bad as she seems.she's just i dunno....hahah.but i'm getting to like her more.although there will always be this barrier between us.cuz she scolded me before.not kidding!!!!!!! anyways,i gtg.i wanna go swimming after the big spring cleaning of my room. it's officially : 6 days to the PSLE.jiayous all p6! 27/9/2008
heys people.my day - so far - has been fuckingly crappy.i didn't mean to use "fuck",but if you go to [http://dictionary.com/]and search the word "fuck",it doesn't only mean "sexual intercourse" but there are a number of other definitions too.so there.and Singapore's a free country.i can do whatever i want - AS LONG AS IT'S NOT AGAINST THE LAW . anyways,back to my day.it was terribly crappy.the only word i can use to descirbe my feeling now is - pissed - i'm totally pissed off.first this morning,when i finished all my stuff and wanted to sit down to drink my cup of milk,guess what?it's 6.55am already.so,i gulp all that down in like what,6mouthfuls???then,when i got to school - at gate 2 - i "suddenly" remembered that i forgot to sign the progress report.then i called home,asked daddy to come help me sign it.then the first bell rang.forget about signing that fucking progress report.i told myself.so i told daddy that i'd bring it home and let hime sign it later.and guess what he said,"you ah,always like that.one day, must give you one tight slap." i was like "i don't give a damn!"but i didn't scream it in his face lah.mr ong there leh.then had the flag raising ceremony.then went to the hall to find the class and go back to the class with them. and guess what,the timetable's "frozen" again.cuz of the p3 & p4 orals.great.we had miss ong from 7.30am to 11am.then miss ong had her own periods at 11.30 - 12.30.wah lao. then i totally forgot i hadn't memorise the dictation passage yet.double damn!i had to like cram it all into my head while miss ong taught.what the heck!then well,memorised it,did the stupid dictation.then mrs ooi gave us a "2nd pre-psle test".miss ong was like."i'll time you.1h 50min" great.did the english paper2,diao... then went for recess.i wanted to get stella to go recess with me.before i could finish my sentence, she'd already gone off with ser jean and the sidekick,fang yun.i was like stumped.i was totally lost for words.it's like she never knew me in her life.then went recess on my own.met huiyun.we queued up at the same stall.then wanted to sit with her,but she left.so,on the way to go find shao shan to eat,my pair of chopsticks was knocked off my bowl by some boy from 6/2. had to go back to the stall to take another pair,then find shao shan.and when i wanted to have a twosome recess with her,tricia had to come and spoil everything.i didn't have a nice time eating with her,nor did i have a nice time letting shao shan get squashed between tricia and i.. then went back to class.miss ong went through one of the worksheets and she said that cedric's, stella's and mine's answer was similar and she said that if a friend discusses the answer with us, we should say,"thank you ...,i know how to do this question already.i'll construct a NEW sentence of MY OWN now." that's what i said to en le after i asked her how to do a question.i was seething with anger. the other pupils have tuition teachers to help them,they've got real friends to help them.what about me?i don't have tuition teachers,i don't have real friends,then what do i have?that's why i have to resort to this.it's something that i don't wanna resort to.why can't anybody understand that?everybody in class was looking at me as if i was the one that literally copied the answer from cedric.why can't everybody else blame stella too? it's like i can never be myself.i must act in front of my "friends" just to be able to talk to them. why can't anyone understand that i just wanna be myself??????but i'm thankful that God gave me enle.she's like totally understanding and we share a common liking of books! anyways,it didn't actually get worse from after school.but i was totally happy yesterday.during piano lesson,the teaher said next year,i'll be taking grade 4 theory and grade 3 practical!woohoo! if you're thinking why i'm only at grade 3,it's cuz i stopped learning for like 2years,then continued learning last year.and i'm getting a piano!should be next week or so.by then i'll be able to practice properly. and on monday,i felt like a new person.i was really happy that day.it was pure happiness.thank God!and my new favourite song now is "This is the day that the Lord has made" or something like that.the music's cool and the lyrics are even cooler! anyways,i gtg.it's 9days to the psle and i totally gotta study!!!byes! 24/9/2008
heyys...i know it's late now and i should be sleeping - it's like what,2.30am now in Singapore - and benben 哥哥 has chided me online.[wow.lucky me]lol.anyways,it was like totally fun today. the whole family had soo much fun today.
it all started after breakfast.daddy went to sleep[i've got totally no idea why he did that]then mummy and i were in the kitchen then i found the guava concentrate.i told mummy i wanna like mix it with water and she was like "whatever,anything".she said that like at my every sentence. so fun can?then well,daddy had to come and spoil our fun.[lucky us].
then chang chang found the thing to make jelly.so we like sorta made it,with alot of like which container to use,how much water to pour and,well,the stirring too.lol.so fun lah.we ate that later after our dinner.it was totally gross.like it did not have enough time to solidize properly.it couldn't "jell" without the help of the fan.hahah.lol.
then kai kai found the pancake mix.so we started to mix the pancake mix too.so we poured 1cup of the pancake mix and 3cups of water.then i took the box and took a look at it.guess what.the label read: "1cup[of pancake mix] --> 6pancakes --> 3/4cup[of water]" then i burst out laughing! the "3/4" meant three-quarter cup of water!and mummy read it as 3 to 4 cups of water.!omg.we were laughing and laughing.we ended pouring it ALL the pancake mix to mix.it was a disaster.hahahahahahahahahah.
then the three of us went to basement carpark to play badminton.it was totally fun at first.until kaikai and changchang started to quarrel.and then,haiz.guess what.i was stuck in the middle.one said he wanted to hit the shuttlecock to me,so the other wouldn't get to hit it.then the other one said don't play with him.and well,it was totally unbearable.
we played for a surprisingly long time.we played for like 2hours.i mean,once you start playing, you can't stop.you feel the adrenaline rush through you and it's so thrilling.i totally love badminton.it's now my favourite sport along with [beach]volleyball,inline skating,cycling and swimming.lol.
anyways,i couldn't join them when they went swimming cuz it's that time of the month for me. but it was nice to have some time to myself.hahah.but it was nothing much.it was just 1/2an hour.haha.btw,i gtg. it's officially: 12 days to the PSLE 21/9/2008
hellos!i'm finally back after 6days!haha...whatever.anyways,the new mv for 酸甜 is out!!omg.but i've not gone to see it yet..plus the new disney advertisement by 飛輪海 is out!!omg..亞綸damn hot when he was like speaking cantonese lah..[not as if i really like canto that much]his voice sounds soo damn husky.and the new 霹靂MIT trailer.亞綸 and guigui's kising scene was damn hot!omg.ahhh!hahah.i'll post those later.
anyways,took the "mock" psle test for science today.wah lao.damn hard can?i was like writing until my hand hurt and after the test,my hand shook like it wasn't going to stop..my hand still damn tired lah.was soo tempted to not post today hahahh..what's the "mock" test,you ask?
lol.it's just another round of "prelims" to prepare us for the psle.like we were thrilled about it.as if the prelims and psle were not enough.the prelims is as mentally exhausting as it is already.and the start of the written papers is in like exactly two week away.and now they come up with this stupid idea of having another round of english,maths,science,chinese and higher chinese.lucky us.but it's not as strict as the prelims.we're taking it in class.so not so bad.hahah.hcl's on monday.....don't wanna take!but luckily it's only the paper 2...it's a good thing in a bad thing [不幸中的大幸]
btw,wish me luck!!hahah.anyways,i'm totally proud of mr Ong..as in KHS's principal.y'know why?cuz according to miss ong,during the psle marking,we use different schools as marking centres.so in the west,mr Ong is in charge of that school used as a marking centre.how cool is that??!!plus mr Ong is a physics person.means that he was trained as a physics scientist.or sth like that..
and after the last science mass lecture,he came and talk to us.he said to be concise while answering the science questions..btw,he's also a "王"...hahah!which literally means "king" in chinese..haha!me too!yea me..lol.[got this phrase for london tipton from "the suite life of zack and cody"]
i wasam planning for a bbq farewell party for selected classmates.daddy and mummy let me have it!!!woohoo!stella,huining,alyssa,qinlin and huisin already agreed to come.now that leaves the boys.i'm planning to invite both brandons,edwin and maybe junjia.hahah....i've asked edwin. i'll ask the boys after psle.lol... anyways,i gtg.wanna read winglin!hahah... 14 days to PSLE!! 19/9/2008
i'm all alone all over again..haiz.i'm home alone.hahah.mummy went for a wedding dinner,daddy, kai and chang went to si gugu's house to celebrate mid-autumn's festival.it's actually one of my most favs festival of all.know why,cuz i get to eat lots and lotsa mooncakes!i totally dig mooncakes.it's part of the chinese culture,which i'm totally proud of.being part of 5000 years of history is really honorable.even as much as i hate china,i love it's culture!
anyway,back to my point.i've been staying at home the whole day.but i'm not bored.it's only that it's 10.20pm and it's getting quite freaky around the house.i actually stayed at home cuz i wanted to finish up all the homework.well,i've finished almost all of it,except the chinese compo and memorising the dictation passage.
but i'm not posting for this sole reason.it's because i wanted to share that i can successfully say that i've formed a wonderful friendship with my one and only classmate,brandon gwee!hahah.it's cuz i was talking to him on msn and then he was like asking who i liked,and who he likes.and then we were like giving each other advice,and yeh.
it was really fun.i haven't given advice to anybody in a long,long time.in donkey years,you could say.i told him some of his weak points and then told him what he should do,and well,i hope that he'd really follow my advice..hahah.zi lian!
anyways,i really hope he would smile more,instead of wearing that scowl on his face all the time. as i found out,it's cuz of mrs ooi.it's like damn obvious lah!she's so damn irritating.but then i told him my remedy.haha.i just laugh it off.actually,what God decrees to happen will happen.He never makes mistakes.so i just sorta accept what happens.cuz i know that whatever happens is part of God's plan.
it's hard to believe.that mrs ooi is actually Christian.from what i hear in class,she's been swearing and the whatever stuff,cursing us.omg.but anyways,the conversation with brandon gwee,if you're hoping that i tell his crush,dream on!we've made a promise to keep the secrets within each other.and fyi,my crush is totally not brandon lim!just cuz i admire him cuz he can stay optimistic and jokey all the time,i don't like him!admire is diffrerent than like!plz..grow up an get a life people!
but if he likes me,i think if we hang out enough,i think i'll eventually like him.but,it'll totally never happen unless he tells me.and by the way things are going,it's not going to happen in the next century.lol.but yesterday,when i asked him[brandon lim]what answer he put for one of the questions,haha,guess what.he didn't laugh at me!totally happy!yea!i guess i caught i him in a flustered moment,so haha.he looked dazed!so he totally didn't laugh!yea me!
but the conversation with brandon gwee yesterday still feels like a dream,sorta like an illusion,to me.maybe cuz i haven't,say,seen brandon gwee this mellow and sorta like shy,before.it's totally refreshing.but i think i this brandon gwee better than the emo and scowling brandon gwee.haha
i wonder what change i'll see in brandon gwee on monday.i'm really looking forward to monday. it's a first,since i normally,or should i say,always,hate monday.cuz it's the start of another week of misery in the hands of mrs ooi,ms ong and ahdu.lucky us.i totally wanted mdm lok as our form teacher again,but alas,it's not our choice.it's the choice of the damned school.okay,i'm just kidding.i just typed that in a moment of pique. anyways,i wish that i have sooo much more stuff to talk about.but thou have none left.hahah!lol. btw,hope all you readers have a great night.since daddy,kai,chang and mummy are not home yet.i guess it's something that i've gotten used to,since i'm a "latch-and-key" kid.when i go home after school,there's no one at home.hahah.but this has never happened to me at night.but,i'm going to go watch a movie on channel 8 now...it's called "2 young"..nitez!!! 13/9/2008
it was the psle listening comprehension today...had teachers from other schools to be invigilators. damn nerve-wrecking lah...it was soo quiet..not like the usual kong hwa style at all.btw,in the morning,when i was going to school,my neighbour also went lah.plus she was sitting her mother's boyfriend's car.woohoo!...NOT!guess what,she studies in canossa convent.a all girls school as i heard.oh!i'm so worried that she'll end up a lesbian!...NOT!
whatever,she was like acting so show-offy lah.she came back with a classmate,i gather.but,as i understand from past experience,her house is DAMN boring,can?i don't care whether she likes fei lun hai or whatever.cuz fei lun hai's for everybody to like....
back to listening comprehension.went to the hall,then the oas [optical answer sheet] was like so different from the school's.it was pink,instead of blue,and my name,index number and school and other deets were already printed!and like more that half the page was used for deets.the space where we shade was like so small!save alot of time!anyways,the chinese listening was much much easier than the english one.
anyways,i wanted to post yeaterday,but was too lazy,plus i stayed back till 3 plus just cuz ahdu wanted to go through our prelims compo with us.diao....anyways,i finally found out why qinlin had been ignoring me the past few days.y'know why?
cuz there was this video on my phone that while looking through my phone,huining watched it and alyssa also watched part of it.only qinlin didn't.that's why she had been ignoring me.BUT IT'S NOT MY FAULT!it's MY video,I choose the person I wanna let them see.
some good intentioned advice for qinlin:DON'T THINK THAT JUST BECAUSE YOUR ARE THE ONLY CHILD IN YOUR HOME,IT MEANS THAT EVERYBODY MUST LET YOU HAVE YOUR WAY ALL THE TIME LIKE WHEN YOU ARE AT HOME.PLEASE UNDERSTAND THAT NOT EVERYBODY IS SUCH A PUSHOVER LIKE HUINING AND ALYSSA AND WILL LET YOU HAVE YOUR WAY ALL THE TIME.PEOPLE LIKE ME CAN'T STAND PEOPLE LIKE YOU WHO THINKS THAT YOU ARE THE QUEEN OF THE WORLD AND EVERYBODY MUST LET YOU HAVE YOUR WAY EVEN IF THEY ARE UNWILLING.ME FOR ONE,AM DISGUSTED BY YOUR BEHAVIOUR.YOU SAY DON'T SAY THAT YOU ARE FROM CHINA, BUT SAY THAT YOU ARE FROM SINGAPORE.AND YOU ONLY USE SINGAPORE AS A STEPPING STONE FOR YOU TO GO TO AMERICA TO STUDY WHEN YOU ARE OLDER. MIGHT AS WELL PROCLAIM YOURSELF AS AMERICAN NOW,AND GO TO AMERICA TO JOIN YOUR AUNT OR WHOEVER SHIT IT IS,AND SAVE US ALL THE MISERY OF HATING YOU.I DON'T CARE IF YOU IGNORE ME OR TREAT ME AS INVISIBLE,CUZ I DON'T BOTHER TO HAVE A FRIEND LIKE YOU.I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOU ACTING PITIFUL JUST TO GET THE SYMPATHY OF FRIENDS,ESPECIALLY BERWYN.I FEEL SO SAD FOR HIM,TO BE TWIRLED AROUND YOUR FINGER.I'VE HAD ENOUGH OF YOU,TRYING SO HARD ACTING THE GOOD GIRL IN FRONT OF THE TEACHERS,AND ACTING AS IF YOU REALLY CARE ABOUT STELLA.STOP STEALING MY FRIENDS LIKE YOU DID TO HUINING.I WON'T ACT LIKE ALYSSA OR HUINING ANYMORE,ACTING IGNORANT AND FULFILLING YOUR EVERY WHIM OR INSTRUCTION.I'LL TREAT YOU THE WAY I TREAT SERJEAN OR JUNE,WITH DESPISE AND HATRED.WHO CARES IF BERWYN FALLS OUT WITH ME.I'LL BE GLAD THAT I GOT YOU OUT OF MY SYSTEM!!!!!! well,that's the advice for her..NOT!who cares if she's not friends with me anymore.she had never been from the start.the relationship with her was just an act.all an act.just a facade.like a hollow trunk,nice on the outside but no substance within.too bad!i was never eager to be friends with her anyway.i'm just glad i got all the anger out of my system.it's like a great load being lifted from my shoulders.yea!i feel so free!hahah...i gtg...soo bye! 12/9/2008
hellos!posted four days ago,but feltfeel like posting again,so there.posting now..lol.well,got my book back from ahdu...and i know all my prelims results...i'll tell you now ^__^
the letters/word in "[]" are the grades.the results that shocked me the most wereare the higher chinese results.it's got the highest out of all the results.and well,let's say english...i was quite disappointed.i expected to get a 80+,but i only got 70+...but i'll keep on trying.for my maths,i was quite happy,cuz i improved by 6 marks!woohoo!
and for normal chinese,improved too,by i think 1 or 2 marks.so quite okay lah...my listening 20/20,compo 29.5/40,oral 41/50 and paper 2, 71/90 so quite happy.especially compo.improved alot for 26/40.yea me!lol.then for science,urmm..mixed feelings lah.happy that improved by 3 or 4 marks,but i expected to get at least 70/100.since my answering techniques improved.haiz.
and for higher chinese~...totally loved it.the exam was actually quite easy,that's why.compo 30.5/40.highest i ever got for an exam EVER.i only got such high marks with the help of my 笔记本..it's a notebook that i write all my good chinese idioms and proverbs in...but i had a great wave of inspiration on the exam day..so.yeah.
and for the paper 2,i got a whooping 50.5/60!yeah meagain!the difference in marks between me and the highest in class is like 5marks.omg.totally full of myself..lol.but i got,like,a distinction.it's a first for me.and in Singapore,if you get a distinction for higher chinese,you get an extra 3marks added to your total agrigade[?] score!!!
yea!haha.but even though i've done quite well,i MUST remind my that i must continue to keep the kind of mindset that i had before the prelims.please remind me that!btw,it's been a bad time for stella,she's got disappointments from both science and her best subjects,higher chinese.btw,i gotta say this to her.stella,no matter what,i believe you can do it.so jiayous kkay?then we can go dunman or cedars' together.if i can do it,so can you!! ^..^ oh..and watched the premiere of camp rock! on disney channel on sunday.it was totally cool!but the ending was kinda weird.no confession,nothing!and mitchie[demi lovato] didn't end up winning the final jam!it was some girl called peggy or sth.but,it was still nice.the songs were great. powerhouse vocal songs from demi lovato;cute songs from meaghan martin;nice rocky songs from jonas brothers;nice ballad from joe jonas;and the "all together" song by the cast.plus some other songs like hasta la vista,here i am,start the party.and others. and since the ending was totally weird,huining hypothesised that there would be camp rock 2..yeah if there would,i would totally expect it,but i'll be sure that it wouldn't give me such a surprise like the original one.yeahs. anyways,the psle listening comprehension for both english and chinese is on the coming friday,so i gtg liao..must go eat dinner.and...it's 22days to the written paper for the psle!so all p6,jiayous! bye! T_T 10/9/2008
hey again.i just felt like posting again.lots and lotsa stuff been running through my head since just now.i felt so frustrated,like i could pull out all the hairs on my head,and felt soo out of sorts.i couldn't concentrate on anything,just wanting to sleep the day and all my frustrations away.dunno what came over me.is it because of the fact that ahdu took my book or what? i just felt so frustrated,wanting to do this,and ending up doing it all wrongly.wanting to do that and ended up banging on it just because i couldn't get it right.ended up snapping at my bro whether to cook rice anot.arrgh!i can't take this any longer! all i want is to go up to ahdu and demand that she return me my library book and my handbook. and for the first time in my life,i wish that the weekend would actually end sooner and i know that i will jump out of bed on monday even before my alarm clock rings,too eager to get both books back. sigh..but she may not even return them to me.like brandon gwee's book.in her clutches and never allowed to see the light again.one less person knowing is a blessing right?one of the big burdens i was carrying was thrown into the sea by God just now.thank God ahdu didn't call mummy.or i would've gotten it from her already. i don't think i can fulfill all of the ideals from the verse i written from the previous post."face your past without regrets.handle your present with confidence.prepare for the future without fear." like i can fulfill them. there's another verse i would like to share.from John 3:16 ---- 'For God so loved the world,He gave His One and Only Son that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have eternal life.' i totally love this verse.and i believe that God will make the weekend better for me.i just hope i can throw it to the back of my mind till monday...till then.i gtg.needa go eat dinner.gonna got scolded liao..byes! 5/9/2008
heyys.i'm back.after a superbly horrible day at school.i know it's the one week hols now,but we've [and by "we" i mean the p6]gotta go back to school for some stupid supplementary lessons to prepare us for the psle.i mean.it's totally cruel.we've only got a week to rest and here you are, giving us more pressure there is supposed to be. anyways,got the library book and my handbook confiscated by ahdu just now when she was going through the STUPID AND IDIOTIC psle higher chinese book.i got like practically every question right and there i was,reading to kill time cuz she was going at this really really slow pace,a snail could even overtake her lah.pls loh. then she confiscated them from me.i almost wanted to scream out to the whole class,like in the stories in winglin.i just wish i had so much courage.but i don't.plus i'm bound my the rules.and the big big burden of setting a good example for fellow students. i dunno what i'm going to do if she doesn't return them to me on monday next week.if she doesn't return the library book to me,i'm going to get her to pay me back the money for the fines.plz.plus,my handbook is like my really really precious thing.if she doesn't return it to me,all my good words i collected from various books will be gone.and i think she's not going to return them to me at all. the book that she confiscated from brandon gwee last year,i didn't notice that she returned it to him at all...i went to find her after the supplementary.she just said,"why did you read during my lesson?i already pointed to you,but you acted as if it was not you."i dunno whether she's going to call mummy anot. but even if i tell it to mummy,all she will say is [the famous one]"serve you right.who ask you to read during lesson time?"i mean.it's totally discouraging lah.i regained my love for books after a long time,and now they're crushing it again.i just hope ahdu returns it to me.i just wanna get on with my life and forget about her.i don't wanna get stuck at this part of my life and forgetting to enjoy life later on. to be frank,i TOTALLY HATE all my teachers this year.it's like totally unbearable can?i wished i could have mdm lok back as my teacher,but guess what?the STUPID school let her teach p4.i don't even know how did i survive the past 8months of this year.other classes had really nice and kind teachers.and 6/3 got the totally bad teachers.miss ong's enough,and they give us mrs ooi.to make matters worst,they gave us ahdu all over again. i lived the past 8months of my life in a blur.everyday at school's so mudane[?]and all a blur.i don't even know how i survived this.but i survived this with God's grace.i didn't have really good results,good teachers,nice friends but i survived all this.THANK GOD! anyways,here's a verse from the Bible for all you readers out there: 'I asked God,"How do I get the best out of life?" God said,"Face your past without regrets. Handle your present with confidence. And prepare for the future without fear!"' i gtg.wanna get the best of life now.[totally not joking].bye! 5/9/2008
